Whispers

I am a rape survivor. I am the audience to your coldness, your assaults on our bodies, minds and hearts. I am an abuse survivor. I am the audience to your treachery, your invasions of our safe spaces, our wellbeing and homes. I am ‘female’, The target behind your snipes and your condemnation, the hearts [...]

kinky disability: emotional instability, sub space and sub drop

note: i won’t be talking about dom space/drop, largely because i can’t remember how it feels or how it affected me, as it was a long time ago. my experiences with sub space are much more recent. i don’t typically talk about my emotional instability. partially because it’s not typically present and thus doesn’t affect [...]

supernatural or schizotypal? what does it matter?

yesterday, my car told me her name. after an evening storm, the roads were coated with fog. when driving on the unlighted side roads that twisted and turned every few yards, the only thing one could see was about a foot of pavement underneath a dense blanket. nights like these are rare, but when they [...]

playing one’s cards and patience

winter is finally over. i can tell, because the weather is yoyoing between bright and sunny to cloudy and dreary with rain (or freezing rain, joy), between unusually warm to bitterly cold. this yoyoing is the real marker of the weather finally changing, because it means the snow is (slowly) melting, the rivers are flooding [...]

Of Video Games and Reclamation: The Unseen Advantages of DID

Back in the day, on another server in the different era of patch 3.3.3a, we mained a Survival hunter. Or, well, one of us did. The rest of us didn’t find a whole lot of enjoyment in hunters, though the general knowledge and occasional gameplay would seep through. But for whatever reason, hunters were what [...]

The Struggle of Decisions

Trigger warning for the mention of sexual harassment. This post is my contribution to the January Assistance Dog Blog Carnival, hosted by L^2 over at Dog’s Eye View. Over the past several months I’ve been thinking about the possibility of working with a service dog. Likely a Doberman, as they are the breed that is [...]

Kinky Disability: Of Unconventional Chores

As the days go by, one of the things I’m learning over time is to find happiness and satisfaction in the little things. As mentioned in a previous entry, I’m in a power exchange relationship. Depending on how one defines it, we sort of balance between D/s and M/s. One of the common elements is [...]

The Color Purple

Yesterday, while I was at work, I saw a “straight-seeming” couple walk in holding hands. Both of them were wearing purple. This got me thinking. It got me thinking about the invisibility of the queer community. Both in our society and within the community itself. Here is this couple that so many people wouldn’t even [...]

Intersections of Disability and Transgenderism

Note: This post was originally posted on Questioning Transphobia. I’m cross-posting it here because what better way to get back into the swing of talking about trans issues than to blog about it? Or at least in my world. It’s what works for me, so I’mma do it. I’ve been avoiding the trans community for [...]

To Come To Terms

This week is Mental Illness Awareness Week in the United States! Started by the National Alliance on Mental Illness, its a week dedicated to help bringing awareness about the effects of mental illness and support for loved ones that live with it. I hope to be able to write something about living with mental illness [...]